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Journal Entry: Wed Dec 23, 2009, 4:18 PM

Mood: Happy
Listening to: my I-SKULD
Reading: GLASS by Ellen Hopkins
Watching: Robin Williams: Weapons of Self Destruction
Drinking: hot chocolate

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My bestest friend and total pink, love filled sweetheart,*65heroine, gave me a subscription!!! I love her so so so much for this! This is one the best presents I've ever gotten in my whole life!!! I love her so much more than I think is humanly possible! XD >3< Lots of love to my pink sweetheart!

UPDATES
My art studio class and I are doing a series of metamorphosis self portraits. We might be finishing them a few weeks after we come back from vacation. My art has been improving greatly and so has my writing.
I'm so excited to open my Christmas presents. I get the feeling that this year my Christmas will be better than all the others. I've had such an amazing life changing year and I know something special will happen soon. Nothing bad I hope, just good. GOOD.
I got a few presents already form some of my friends at school. I'm glad that already in a few short months I have such awesome friends. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season. GIVE LOVE!

SACRED
=SiSero and =Giname's manga Sacred is now available at Barnes and Nobels. [link] Please support these two amazing people! GIVE LOVE!

TAG
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

1.I'm in love with ~IigouthamiI
2.~songstressoflight Is actually my real life sister.
3.My bestest friend since like ever is ~Defender-Of-Light.
4.Sacred by Lizbeth R. Jimenez. =SiSero is my favorite manga.
5.I absolutely love my high school and all my friends there.
6.I fave way too many deviations [then again, who doesn't]
7.I want to be an artist, writer and art history teacher at my high school after I graduate.
8.I want two beautiful twin girls named Abigail and Sophia with my future husband and soul mate.
9.I love reading and writing and art.
10. I LOVE YOU DEVIANTART.

I tag, *65heroine,~IigouthamiI,*SoulMaster18 and ~XevilchildX.

Give Love
~IigouthamiI
~Defender-Of-Light
~songstressoflight
~XevilchildX
*65heroine
*SoulMaster18
~TheCrystalGaurdian
~O3-zone
~tombow200
~raiikuii
*Croatiasbest101
=SiSero
=Giname
*Tsurakai

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Wonder

Fri Dec 18, 2009, 6:23 PM

Mood: Depressed
Reading: Such A Pretty Girl by Laura Wiess

_{Lately it seems as if my life has been a timeless dream as I am lost within the grace of the world's vastness. Each hour of my day seems like a whole day in itself. I waste my time with school and to me it seems as if I do nothing of importance. I go day by day and it seems like a lifetime to me in which I have grown wiser and still I have not aged to that of elderly status. People don't see it in my face but the sadness still lingers. Although I have been growing closer to those who mean the world and more to me. They keep the darkness at bay. Yet it still reaches me when they disappear. I'm hoping for better days. I've also been thinking of my life and whatever significance it may have. How will I be remembered if I were to die? As the lonely girl sitting in the dark? As the dark haired girl? As the Warrior? The Poet? The Artist? The Philosopher? The Prophet? The Dream? The Dreamer? As what?

I'm having a killer headache and pains all over. This is nothing new but if this pain gets any worse, I might have to go the the doctors or the hospital. I honestly don't want to go or even go through this but I have to apparently because my pains and sickness have been plaguing me for about a month or two now. I hope this isn't anything serious, I don't think we could afford anything to care for me if it is.

Currently, my art studio is working on a series of profile views and metamorphosis self portraits. My friend has been drawing my profile for a week now, putting a lot of work and effort into it. As for the metamorphosis portraits, we were suppose to choose an animal that represents us and draw ourselves transforming into that animal. I choose a black cat, simple but mysterious. I took it home today and I'm trying to do the sketching here. Maybe I should post some photos of my recent work. There was a gallery opening for our school last night and tonight but I decided not to go to it. My work has been getting better and I'm quite glad that it has.

I just started writing writing a story as the words appeared in my head earlier today in my art studio class. I heard them in my head s I was reading and I tried to remember them all. I wrote more to them and I wanted to know if this should be made into a whole story or not. Just want your opinion on it if that's alright.

Story Excerpt
The child looked me in the eyes as she clung to me. She looked up at me with eyes so bright the world seemed to be lost within its beauty and innocence. Within those shinning eyes I saw that she knew the sad reality of her situation and the role I played. This child had looked at me with such a grace and innocence and knowledge in her eyes. She had seen me as a god in which miracles and life itself was at the tips of my fingers. So like any God to their children, I told her a lie. A sweet lie, in which as I spoke my voice had no emotion and the monotone in which I spoke in had somehow sounded like reassurance to her angelic mind. She knew in the back of her mind, however, that indeed I was lying but she didn’t care. She would have believed me and that alone made my heart sink faster into the sorrow that was both hers and mine to share and into the nightmares we both had to bare.

Songs
"Shattered" - Trading Yesterday [The Beauty And The Tragedy]
"Mercy" - OneRepublic [OneRepublic]
"Fractured" - Zeromancer [Eurotrash]
"Adalia" - Madina Lake [The Disappearance of Adalia]
"A Prophecy" - Asking Alexandria [Stand Up And Scream]
"The Arms of Sorrow" - Killswitch Engage [As Daylight Dies]

Give Love
~IigouthamiI
~Defender-Of-Light
~songstressoflight
~XevilchildX
*65heroine
~SoulMaster18
~TheCrystalGaurdian
~O3-zone
~tombow200
~raiikuii
*Croatiasbest101
=SiSero
=Giname
*Tsurakai}

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Drowning

Sat Dec 12, 2009, 9:51 PM

Mood: Depressed
Reading: Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck

_{I'm drowning inside, so why not drown in music before I die?

"Never Too Late" - Three Days Grace [One X]
"Annie" - Safetysuit [Life Left To Go]
"Kristy, Are you Doing Okay?" - The Offspring [Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace]
"All That I've Got" - The Used [In Love and Death]
"Family Traditions" - Senses Fail [Life Is Not A Waiting Room]
"Adalia" - Madina Lake [The Disappearance of Adalia]
"Carry Me Down" - Demon Hunter [Storm The Gates of Hell]
"Love Song Requiem" - Trading Yesterday [The Beauty And The Tragedy]
"Should Be Loved" - Blue October [Approaching Normal]
"Seize The Day" - Avenged Sevenfold [City Of Evil]
"The Ghost Of You" - My Chemical Romance [Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge]
"Falling Inside The Black" - Skillet [Comatose]
"Things Aren't So Beautiful Now" - A Thorn For Every Heart [Things Aren't So Beautiful Now]
"What Happened To Us?" - Hoobastank [The Reason]
"The Arms of Sorrow" - Killswitch Engage [As Daylight Dies]
"Watch Me Bleed" - Scary Kids Scaring Kids [Scary Kids Scaring Kids]
"You Be The Anchor That Keeps My Feet On The Ground, I'll Be The Wings That Keep Your Heart In The Clouds" - Mayday Parade [A Lesson In Romantics]
"Please Don't Leave Me" - P!ink [Hitzone 49]
"Don't Fear The Reaper" - Blue Oyster Cult [Agents of Fortune]
"Salt In The Snow" - The Classic Crime [The Silver Cord]
"You Had Me At Hello" - A Day To Remember [And Their Name was Treason]
"Like A Knife" - Secondhand Serenade [A Twist In My Story]
"Smells Like Tenn Spirit" - Nirvana [Nevermind]
"Helena" - My Chemical Romance [Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge]

Give Love
~IigouthamiI
~Defender-Of-Light
~XevilchildX
*65heroine
~SoulMaster18
~TheCrystalGaurdian
~O3-zone
~tombow200
~raiikuii
~Croatiasbest101
=SiSero
=Giname}

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Questions

Sun Dec 6, 2009, 5:33 PM

Mood: Hopeless
Listening to: "Moment of Truth" - FM Static
Reading: The Black Cat by Edgar Allan Poe

_{**This journal contains some ranting**
This might not be important to anyone or even matter at all but I need to say this.

I know that I'm changing, for better or worse I can't rightfully say. I know something is different about me. What is it? I don't know. But some people have been noticing a change in me. The way I talk, my expressions, the way I carry myself. As if something is tiring me and eating away at me. People say they see a sadness in my face that not even I know why its there.

Lately, I have no clue whats been going on with me. Everything seems to fading away into a space I can't see or reach. It feels like I'm all alone sometimes no matter where I am. It's in my nature to question things and people around me, but when I'm all alone, I don't. I understand why I'm alone, but I can't understand why no one tries to reach me. I want someone to be there for me, and I have that person. Yes I do have a person to be there for me, the problem is they aren't here.

I've been sick as well. I've missed two days of school this past week. I personally love my art studio class. Not exactly the people or the assignments but the fact I have a place to improve my work. The school is beautiful. Sometimes I wish that when I'm having problems at home I can just stay in the studio or out on the roof for a while until I feel better. I can't really do that now, but I wish I did.

And the Holidays are almost here. Many of you might already know what you might want as presents of gifts and I must say I'm glad for you all. However I must say I have honestly no idea what I want. I know even if I did know what I wanted, I wouldn't get it anyway. I think overall I want just a simple wish to be granted. Just one wish. I've never been more sure of this in my whole life. I want only one thing. One. Then maybe if my wish is granted I won't have to worry anymore. I won't have cry myself to sleep every night or be questioned on my sorrow.

**End of rant**

Happy Holidays to all. :3

-Songs-
Some songs on how I'm feeling recently. Its been a while since I wrote any.
"What If" - Safetysuit [Life Left To Go]
"Moment of Truth" - FM Static
"The Arms of Sorrow" - Killswitch Engage [As Daylight Dies]
"Like A Knife" - Secondhand Serenade [A Twist In My Story]
"Whispers In The Dark" - Skillet [Comatose]

Give Love
~IigouthamiI
~Defender-Of-Light
~XevilchildX
*65heroine
~SoulMaster18
~TheCrystalGaurdian
~O3-zone
~tombow200
~raiikuii
~Croatiasbest101
=SiSero
=Giname}

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Commissions:OPEN

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 29, 2009, 1:52 PM

Mood: Delighted
Listening to: lotsa music ;D
Reading: waiting for Burned by P.C. + Kristin Cast
Watching: The Nightmare Before Christmas

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Finally I'm open for commissions. Yes people I'm in desperate need of money.
READ ALL THE INFORMATION BEFORE YOU ASK QUESTIONS OR NOTE ME

First of all, I DO NOT DO:

-Furries [Don't ask why, I just don't]
-Yaoi/Yuri
-Mature Content[no nudity or any of that]

I will draw

-Original Characters
-Fan Art
-Realism [people, portraits, ect]

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Title of note: COMMISSION
Character(s): character's name(s)
Reference: link to any reference you might have
Name exactly what you want in the commission according to price. Do not leave out any important information or I will not accept it.
Email for paypal: So I know who are are

If I reply saying "I accept.", then I will give you my paypal email.

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Color

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-full body $5
-background $4

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